My Anti-Depressants Make Me Feel Cloudy; Sort of Like I’m Not in Reality?

Question by KatieB: My Anti-depressants make me feel cloudy; sort of like I’m not in reality?
The title kind of explains it all.
I used to be a drug-addict. So far, I’ve been going to Narcotics Anonymous, and I’ve got 60 days clean on Sunday.
What made me say “I’m done,” was a couple months ago when, after doing an amount of drugs and drinking, I passed out one night at a party. I woke up the next morning to find that someone had stolen my car, stolen my money from my debit card, and everyone said my ex was drunk and totaled the car. I went downstairs to see that my car was just completely smashed in the front. The whole day, I was literally in shock and couldn’t stop crying uncontrollably.
I began to think that the world was hopeless; I didn’t care if I died today, that moment, or tomorrow. I began to think that I was running into bad luck everywhere; I became suicidal.

I was on Zoloft 50mg at the time, but I could never feel the effects of it. It was like taking a tic tac. I then got sent to an Intense Suicide Outpatient Care program in St.Louis. From there, the psychiatrist upped my dosage to 100mg of Zoloft.

The 100mg of Zoloft worked great in the beginning, but I’ve realized that my experience with anti-depressants is that my body feels calm and relaxed, but those depressing thoughts are still there. It’s sort of like I can’t concentrate, and my mind is just so cloudy that I can’t really think straight. To describe it, I sort of feel like I’m in a dream-like state, and I actually have to tell myself that I’m in reality and I’m actually in my apartment, or at work, or attending an NA meeting. I guess my mind just thinks that I’m just not actually here. If that makes sense.. I can explain differently if anyone’s confused.

I know that the medication is working, and I know that without it, I would be a wreck. I was on Lexapro 20mg last year, and I complained to my doctor that it wasn’t working. She took me off of the medicine, and I became extremely depressed. What I did realize though was that my mind WAS in reality when I was off of the medication; I could think straight, I could actually realize that I was here in this moment doing something.

I don’t think it’s over-medication at all. I’ve talked to a couple other recovering addicts about this, and they say that they understand exactly what I’m talking about from their experiences with anti-depressants.

I think because I’m suffering from post-acute withdrawal syndrome as well, this may sort of be affecting it?

Can anyone share their experiences and how they coped with it?

Thank you.
With all due respect, I’m not asking for a doctor’s opinion. I’m just asking for other’s experiences, and how they were able to deal and cope with the matter. I have a doctor to talk to, but she doesn’t understand or listen to anything that I try to tell her. Time for a new doctor.

Thank you for your answer though.

Best answer:

Answer by Sisyphus
REAL doctors will adjust dosages/alter meds…..NOT random strangers online.

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